by Monica Chuda
We were in love
Late love
More mature
That’s for sure
Thinking we will grow old
Together
That thinking was bold
Surrender
When GOD calls
You have to go
What a blow
To your plans
It happened so fast
You’re never ready
For pulse so thready
Closed eyes
Me aghast
Your last breath
It happened so fast
Ended in death
I gagged
Couldn’t think
Under the floor I sink
But what kept me sane
While you were leaving
Praying your soul easing
To the other side
Wasn’t in vain
Divine Mercy chaplet
Life giving droplet
Repeated over and again
While you were breathing
So heaven you can gain
As JESUS promised
And then it was finished
You lay there still and cold
Loved missed cherished
Memories to hold
My dearest LORD
Into your hands
I commit his spirit
I let him go
Or so I thought
He was taken from his cross
And his loss
Was for me
Ascending mine
Falling to my knees
Indescribable pain
My whole strength drained
Emptied my brain
I was trying in vain
Day after day
There was nothing left
I stand there bereft
Alone in the crowd
To my knees I fell and bowed
Again and again
And I realized
Only You Lord
I could hold on to
And hope in
Your bottomless mercy
I called to the Lord
And He rescued me
From all my distress
He put peace in my heart
Which was racked with pain
Me You sustained
I cried bitterly
Abandoned myself utterly
And You came to me
You made me free
Thank You Lord
To Your all powerful Word
Spoken with Love
Came down from above
To comfort me
Abide in hope
You said
Even if feeling alone
In the whole wide world
I am still here
And your love?
He’s with me up there
In my omnipotent care
Your tears
Your fear
Your sleepless nights
Disappeared in heavenly Light
Live your life
Don’t despair
Your love share
For kingdom prepare
My dear Lord
You offered me healing
In my deepest grieving
Hope and love
From above
I thank you
From the bottom of my heart
Young Woman Praying, Jean-Jacques Henner
Monica Chuda was born in communist Czechoslovakia in the late 1960s. She is a third order Franciscan, mother of four, and grandmother, working as a caregiver for veterans. She is the author of a book of poetry called Heavenly Pelican. Learn more about Monica by following her on Facebook.